Matty sat himself on a nearby stump and watched Sam assess all the trees while he froze his balls off waiting for him. What did he even say? He didn't like Harry but he didn't want to shit all over a guy who had cancer. That was fucking low. He sighed and rubbed at his face, tired and annoyed. "It just ain't easy for me. You got away and you come back and ... everything's different. I just feel like with every passing year, you're drifting further."
Honestly, he got it. He knew, he was dumb and stuck in the past, he wasn't exactly being nice about things and he had a different idea of family than Sam but ... he never thought he'd feel awkward around his little brother. "You act like you had to survive me and dad to be where you are now. Kinda stings, Sammy. I know, we weren't perfect but we loved you. I loved you. You don't have to go back but... don't be ashamed of us."
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Matty sat himself on a nearby stump and watched Sam assess all the trees while he froze his balls off waiting for him. What did he even say? He didn't like Harry but he didn't want to shit all over a guy who had cancer. That was fucking low. He sighed and rubbed at his face, tired and annoyed. "It just ain't easy for me. You got away and you come back and ... everything's different. I just feel like with every passing year, you're drifting further."
Honestly, he got it. He knew, he was dumb and stuck in the past, he wasn't exactly being nice about things and he had a different idea of family than Sam but ... he never thought he'd feel awkward around his little brother. "You act like you had to survive me and dad to be where you are now. Kinda stings, Sammy. I know, we weren't perfect but we loved you. I loved you. You don't have to go back but... don't be ashamed of us."