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[personal profile] sellerofsins 2024-09-25 05:29 pm (UTC)(link)
Fuck.

He put his foot on top of the book and yanked it under his chair but it was too late. Well. Balls. He couldn't help it! This stupid book was wrecking him.

With a sniff, he tried to play it cool, leaning back in his chair with what he hoped was a baffled expression and not an embarrassed on. "No." So there. "Just doing a little light reading - why?" Clearing his throat, he pushed the book further back. "Lovely visit, do show yourself out."
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[personal profile] sellerofsins 2024-09-25 05:39 pm (UTC)(link)
"Beth isn't doing so hot." So he wasn't exactly at a great part, just entering into the soul crushing reality that good people just die sometimes. That used to tickle him, now it was like gut punch. A beautiful, addictive and oddly fun one too.

"I don't enjoy any of this. Feelings, they're just... they're a weakness. Never liked them as a man, don't like them as a demon." It was all guilt, misery and regret. So much regret. And frustration too. Nothing had changed since the last time he had feelings! Nothing. His life was still a hollow, loveless nightmare. It just sucked.

"Honestly, I'm mostly horny." Aleister lied as a last ditch attempt to change topics. "Wanna give me a hand?"
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[personal profile] sellerofsins 2024-09-25 05:51 pm (UTC)(link)
He hated this. He had nowhere to put any of his feelings and he'd honestly rather be left alone with his books. Whenever Bobby was herez it was just a confusing mess of irritating emotions.

"My loss, I'm sure. Losing out on my chance at an over the hill red-neck. Tragic." Aleister drawled as he leaned back, trying his best to not enjoy the weird spark of joy this gave him. Rejection. Disappointment. Familiar feelings but no less painful. He was used to it, it was like coming home and he supposed it was nostalgia that fueled him.

He knew why he wasn't loved. He was unlovable. A dick. And he deserved this. All of this. "I guess your type is whatever girl is willing to touch you down there. And we all know you're not a big demon kind of guy. Given your whole 'shoot my wife' thing." He snorted. "Now there was a whoopsie."
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[personal profile] sellerofsins 2024-09-25 06:02 pm (UTC)(link)
"I don't get turned down often, it's not hard to pull, it's just not worth it." He could get his fair share when he wanted to but he didn't really need one night stands. They weren't hard, they were almost dime a dozen. The tricky thing was anyone who actually wanted him. That hadn't happened... ever. Even his wife just settled, honestly.

"Love is for mortals, it's a pointless little weakness that's only worth it if you're on limited time." What did a demon need with love? It was just a waste of time. "If I wanted to invest in worthless novelties, I'd sooner indulge in orgies than love."
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[personal profile] sellerofsins 2024-09-25 06:17 pm (UTC)(link)
"Ah. Touche." No, Aleister had no frame of reference. The closest he ever felt to that sort of love was his mother and it was never mutual. In fact, he could barely remember what it was like to not feel entirely bitter and angry towards her. The softness of love had long since turned into a bluntness that never quite penetrate him.

Truth was, he had no idea what it was like for Bobby and a desperate part of him wished he knew.

Why didn't he get these feelings? Why did no one want him like that? Ah, yes, the whole part about being a loser and an asshole. He'd rather have the pain if it meant he got to feel something good for once. Fuck. Now he was upset. He didn't say anything, out of concern he'd say the wrong thing, so he just leaned back and looked off away from Bobby.
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[personal profile] sellerofsins 2024-09-25 06:31 pm (UTC)(link)
"I don't care. Cry me a river." Aleister dismissed as soon as he could, though he didn't go any deeper than that. He didn't want to poke the hornets nest but he didn't think he had much choice. "What are you doing? What is this? Are you, what, playing with me? I have these stupid feelings your idiot Moose put in me and this is your means of torture?"

He supposed that seemed about right. He had a weakness now, why not exploit it? He would have done the same. "Piss off."

He would not give into the feeling. He was stronger than this. He wasn't human!
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[personal profile] sellerofsins 2024-09-25 06:43 pm (UTC)(link)
"I'm the king. Plenty of people love me. For better or for worse." Aleister insisted adamantly as he tried to keep his footing in this crisis but he wasn't holding up super well, every comment was just drilling into this weak, pathetic, needy part of him that hated this. That hated it was true and wanted acknowledgement. Wanted to be loved.

"It's not doing anything but boring me. I don't know why you'd waste your evening with someone you can't even stand to be around. You could be doing anything, love. You could be translating or reading one of those big tomes. Wasting your time watching football or monster trucks." So why the fuck was he here, needling him, and not leaving him alone to bask in the fucking misery that was Beth dying. "No, you're here! Pissing me off with your whiny, pathetic feelings. All those pointless, weak emotions. I've told you before - they're a waste!"

So why was he getting all worked up and angry?
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[personal profile] sellerofsins 2024-09-25 06:56 pm (UTC)(link)
He was crying? Great. The humiliations never ended and not the fun, kinky kind of humiliation he liked either. With a sigh, he raised his hand and wiped away the tears hastily, trying his best to hide what was so very obvious. "So that's it, is it? You want the big guns. Of course." The angel tablet was split into three pieces and the last bit was a small bit that he purposefully kept hidden. The part that could restore the angels.

Of course, he wasn't exactly eager to give that away. It was his only bargaining chip. As tempting as the offer was, he tried to be rational and keep his head in the game. "I give that up, you lot kill me. I'm not a moron. You got to offer me more than that."
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[personal profile] sellerofsins 2024-09-25 07:03 pm (UTC)(link)
"I know you won't kill me. Give it half a second and Moose will. You're not the loose canon I need fodder against." Aleister pointed out and he wasn't sure he could rely on the word of Bobby to save his ass. Then again, maybe if he shot up enough blood, he'd feel less bothered by all of this. He'd be so internal that the external wouldn't matter.

After all, what did any of it matter? He had no way out of here, he was losing his grip of his throne and he was bored off his tits.

At least if he got to go out, he stood a chance of escaping. "Blood first, then the tablet. I'll sign a contract, I'll hex myself if you don't trust me, but I want what's mine before we do the trade."
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[personal profile] sellerofsins 2024-09-25 07:11 pm (UTC)(link)
"Oh, this is so hot."

Aleister wasn't going to lie, he waggled his eyebrows and then pulled it forward. He wasn't an idiot like Not-Moose, he actually read his contracts. He went through every aspect, right down into the fine print, double checking each clause and making sure he had a little bit of wiggle room. Not much but a bit. "Nice, well written, I'll agree to almost everything. Not this."

He circled the part that said he'd promise to fetch the tablet. Too simple. "To the best of my abilities. What if I've been robbed? What if it's in heaven? I can't go there. Let's open that up so I don't get blasted my holy energy but otherwise, I agree. To the best of my abilities. The actual best."
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[personal profile] sellerofsins 2024-09-25 07:18 pm (UTC)(link)
"I sign, blood first, tablet after. It won't be easy to get but I'll show you. You. Not them." He was not going to go anywhere as long as Moose wanted to stab him. And it was hard to get time with Matty, his brother was often looming. Joined at the hip as they were. "You can manhandle me all you fancy, pet. I'm not going to protest."

He would but it was fun to play coy. Safer too. He looked at the contract, double checked it once more and then signed it.
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[personal profile] sellerofsins 2024-09-25 07:28 pm (UTC)(link)
"Sure, as you wish." He hadn't expected Bobby to do it for him but he accepted it with his arm held out, not overthinking how intimidate it almost felt. It was as close to romance as someone like him could get. He wasn't sure if it would be different than Sam's, maybe it would be. Maybe it wouldn't be as good, might be a weaker experience. Might be a better vintage because of the years. Hard to say.

He watched the needle go into his skin, not able to look at Bobby while he did it. It wasn't exactly something he was proud of right now.
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[personal profile] sellerofsins 2024-09-25 07:35 pm (UTC)(link)
Well, wasn't this just a treat? He wasn't usually a big fan of humiliation and degrading but there was something in the way Bobby did it that just hit all the right buttons. Looking into his eyes, he managed to keep eye contact until it was all in his veins, then his eyes rolled back as it all came at him suddenly.

Oh fuck. He shuddered and felt the weird, unpleasant warmth of feelings. The way his heart beat increased, the way he felt sick in that same way and God, the feelings. They were like tendrils, they latched onto his insides and filled every part of him with something so alive. At the question, he had to laugh. How did it feel? "I used to do opioids as a man. It's not that different."

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